Same idiot

I re-deposited two nights ago for $60.00 as I had bustoed my BR. Same old shit me. Cannot grow my BR to $1000 and cannot even maintain a BR without redepositing within a month.

Maybe I just suck at BR management. (no kidding). Whenever I grow my BR I jump to another level where I should not be playing.

Playing .10/20 when my BR reach $40 I move to $1/$2. When I get to $200 I play in $2/4 LH. And guess what? When I have $400 to my name, I play in $3/$6 LH. So when 3 coolers/bad beats happen, I lose a massive % of my BR.

What an idiot!!!

Crash

Lost several buyins at $1-2 LH last night ugggh... Need to concentrate more. BR now stands at $21.00

Still a retard

What the hell just happened? I almost bustoed my BR in one night at $3-6 LH 6 handed holdem in a couple of hours. I ran bad and I could not lower the stakes. I started with $400 and just should have stopped at $196 when I had the chance. I think the tilt factor prevented me from doing this...lol

I stopped playing when I had $14 left to my name...grrr.. a $380 loss in one sitting what a waste.

I recouped and regrouped my mind for several hours and started playing .10/.20 LH until I got it up to $20. After that I started playing .25/.50 LH. After getting it up to $40 I started playing $1-$2 LH..

Hopefully I can get it back up so that I can reach my goal of $1000 at least for once and be able to withdraw a 4 figure amount.

Downswing

Last night I dropped about $220 in $3-$6 6handed LH. I should have stopped when I lost my 1st buyin. I risked my entire BR and was down to my last $38 until I was able to fight back up to $175.

KK<10-7hh str8 and a flush on the river. I better maintain my "A" game if I want to make my goals this month.

Rebirth

After busting my roll, I had 300 fpp pts at stars to work with and 5 tickets to a $2K freeroll on Saturdays.

I played the Sat freeroll and left the trny at 22nd place with 28000 chips (I had to go to take my daughter to a birthday party). When we got home a couple of hours later, I had won $7.00 for a 44th place finish. The tourney had about 650 runners to begin with.

The following week I did the same thing (played and left the tourney after 1-1/2 hour play due to family affairs) and won $6.00. I know I could win the tourney for a $350 1st place finish but I could not sacrifice the day (tourney is at 10:30 a.m. PST) for my kids not to enjoy the weekend because of poker.

I grinded the money I had won ($13.00) plus a win on the 280 fpp trny for an $11 trny dollar to $402. THat is right, my BR now stands at $400 after two weeks of playing $3.25 45 man sng's. 18 man SnG's, and $2 180 man MTT's.

When my BR reached $20 or so, I started playing cash on 6 handed .10/.20 and moved up to .25/50 while still playing some SNG's.

I can now control my biggest leak which is my tilt. Now I can leave the table when I'm up even at $5 or $120. I can also leave th table if I was losing $5 which I could not do previously.

I hope I can continue this and get my BR up to $1k by the end of the week. Right now I sometimes only play for 1 hour or 2 a day.

फिनाल्ली

I came to conclusion that Im a terrible cash player. I had $700 yesterday and I blew $600 of it in $100NL...

Starting today I will just focus on MTT tourneys some 45man and 18 man trnys. I finished 8th in a 180 $12 tourney two days ago. A 1st in a 45 man $12 tourney for $154.oo.

Today, I got to score a $180 win on a 18 man $27 tourney at stars. I hope it continues.

PokerStars Tournament #242204576, No Limit Hold'em
Buy-In: $25.00/$2.00 USD
18 players
Total Prize Pool: $450.00 USD
Tournament started 2010/02/12 2:33:09 ET




You finished the tournament in 1st place. A USD 180.00 award has been credited to your Real Money account.

You earned 61 Sit & Go Leader Board Points for the Neptune Division in this tournament. For more information about our Sit & Go Leader Boards, see our website at http://www.pokerstars.com/poker/promotions/battle/


Congratulations!

Thank you for participating

Update

Played a couple of hours last night. Played in $2-$4 LH and after dropping a buy-in and basically card dead, I switched to $1-$2 LH 6 handed. Ended the BR at the end of the day at $156. I need more consistency and I need to change tables if I cannot catch cards for more than 10 orbits!!!